Inspi - wha??

Ok, dammit, where is the inspiration to write and write until my hand hurts??   I am so sick of languishing in this same putrid nihilistic mood. I haven't gone this long without writing since I was learning my letters or some other hyperbolistic lie.  I am always writing some kind of memo, ode, line, journal or what have you, though. Seriously. No, SERIOUSLY   I kind of always told myself I would never be one of those people to post a journal about how much I hated this or that or negati...   Mostly because I dreaded getting all of those condescending hugs or whatever. I don't WANT that.  I want the damned writer's block to lift.  So I don't have some kind of serious meltdown later down the line.  

Well I guess this is something.  

Be good to yourselves...