scarletwave

in the dark my mind slips restless leaves my body finally still assured in sensation composed and at ease with the love that pours out of me . this is my only set of tongue & teeth my shape has been changed by the language we speak and I can not be anything other I am a torrent earnestly exalting I will spill honestly for all to see I am etched in wonder & delight . would you have me be cut from simpler cloth would you have me silence blood & singing bone would you have me?

Just this morning I woke up thinking you were soundly asleep. Dreaming of better things. Of Meredith Grey and Cristina Yang being each other's "person." Of cheese dipped pretzels and good conversations with your fellow bookworm. Sunny days, under a tree with your nose in a book. While your granddaughter pretended to be a mermaid only a few feet away. Having the irrational childhood fear of a great white shark at the other end of the pool. Always asking for your keys or something heavy for her to dive for, pretending to be a lifeguard. But your granddaughter is all grown up now honey. Drinking glass after glass of wine, trying to muster up

Screaming into the night, until my voice is lost to the wind. Eyes spilling over with hot tears, burning my cheeks. Hands trembling violently, as i drag them through my hair. Staring up into the stars searching for a shooting star to wish on. I've felt lost without you, I've tried to forget it all. When you and I said "Love me differently" in such a careless way. My heart convulsed, cracked and shattered to the words. Gasping for air, lungs stinging and throbbing. Holding my hands to my chest, falling to my knees in the green grass. But it will be better, after the grey sky rains life onto me again. Washing away the pain and lost memories. St